the last couple weeks have been exhausting, emotionally draining, fun at some points, but generally stressful. i’m still preparing for vancouver which is fucking me up a lot because i just don’t believe it! a lot of people say they could see me in vancouver. can you? seriously though.
it all started with my wallet being stolen. along with it being a 1500 dollar goyard wallet, it had 200 cash and all my ID
then you know basically from there it became me throwing myself back into this “underworld” of people who don’t do very cool shit. they do the opposite actually… for money!!! and of course knowingly i decided to take these jobs because they always have some dollar value to them…
but with all of that i remembered what thrill it has to release and let the excitement of being so “gangsta”….or whatever that even means.
i’m glad my friends can help me move through it though.
here’s some positive shit from the past couple weeks tho
so as a lot of people may not know, i wrote a song around seven months back. it was called “untitled”, and i wrote it to that same youtube beat and all and i just kinda left it. but recently when i went back through some of the music that i was working on, i came across it. and listening to it now, i really, really, was affected by it and it’s meanings to me.
i feel like the song is just mostly about how sometimes we try to so hard for people who can never return the favour. and when i re-listened to the “untitled” track, patterned it out and tried to butcher the mix (lmao), it really became god rest ur soul after being in a situation that really happened to me in just the past couple of days.
i’m sorry it has to be this way but it’s probably for the better..
i see these situations and hoped for better and hoped that you would get some rest. but not only for you but your soul too.
it feels too distant from the truth now than before.
that’s kind of the message behind the lyrics about us sipping from the same cup…like it’s a metaphor for the truth almost idk. we sometimes want to be so close to who we’re with that we could be seen sharing cups and shit in public but how could we ever get to that point if you just wanna be so dishonest with it?
anyways if you wanna listen to god rest your soul it’s available here, here, and here .
it’s been awhile since my last post but i’m really happy to be back. as of recently i’ve been working on making multiple streams of income through forex, my photography skills, and also creating the newest element of imVVS: